Beauty starts from within ~ no matter how much time you spend on your hair, clothes or makeup, you will not feel beautiful if you don’t spend an equal amount of time on your heart and mind. I am going to be very transparent in this blog. For some time now, I have struggled with trying to balance being the best mom, daughter, sister, friend, stylist, listener, and all around everything for a lot of people. I admit there were days when I was overwhelmed on the inside but tried desperately to keep my head up, smile and act as if I had it all together. I thought, since there were so many people and things depending on me and pulling me in so many different directions, I had no other choice. Like so many others, many days I was just trying to figure it out ~ until I finally realized I really didn’t have to do this all by myself. Life is a journey. We make mistakes. We hurt ourselves, and others. We will have good and bad days. We will have all kind of growing pains, even as adults, that is if you want to move beyond the point of having all these conflicting emotions. Some of us have unresolved issues from our past, insecurities we don’t talk about and try not to think about. However, until we come to some understanding about all of these, we continue an ever everlasting pattern of unknowingness.
So ~ since the end of last year, I have begun reflecting on my life and where I am with my career, my relationships, my finances, and my spirituality. I do this through prayer, meditation, counseling, and total honesty with myself, and others. I was unhappy in many areas of my life and I was sick and tired of pretending. I am so happy to say that God is forcing me to Stop, Be Still and Listen. I have let go of a lot of things and people, which was necessary ~ though painful. However, I heard God speaking and He encouraged me to work on myself. I know that God is preparing me to attract the right opportunities and the right people in my life. I must love and respect myself more, be responsible for my actions, and be in control of what I say and do. I have learned to accept people for who they are, not how I want them to be, look at what people do and not what they say. I will respect everyone I come in contact with and treat them the way I wish to be treated. Now this doesn’t mean that I want everyone I come in contact with to be my friend or be an intimate part of my circle. I simply mean ~ I will treat people that way I want to be treated.